with myself. I know better than to be blogging right now. But I have discipline issues now.

Whoever said university isn't a lot of work is a BIG FAT LIARRRRRRRRRR. Because university is SO MUCH WORK. And you can't procrastinate like you did in highschool because it comes to eat you in the ass later.

I'm seriously and I'm saying this with all seriousness, I want to quit university. I talked about it with my parents and OBVIOUSLY they didn't take it too well. But I don't think I'm cut out for university. I mean, some people can do it and some people can't. But the thing is, if I drop university I don't know what else I'd do with my life. Maybe I can apply to do one of those like "teach english overseas" thing. But I have a feeling dropping university isn't something that I can do easily. I mean, my parents... would probably disown me or something. My brother who has always seen me as the role model that he needs to grow up to be will be so disappointed in me. I guess I should at least finish first year before I make any other decisions.

I have about... 4 hours to finish my lab, do my prelab, and study for my midterm today. SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. Why does my life suck as much as this? Oh well, just make it through today...

I thought I did okay on yesterday's PHYSICS midterm until I saw the solutions posted today and even though I don't remember my exact answers... I don't think the solutions he posted matched my solutions. DAMN. I think I got like 8/16 for multiple choice. Not sure though...

I really like DBSK's survivor song. Even though people don't like the MV, after watching it a couple of times, I actually don't think it's that bad. I agree that the dance is kind of funny and although the theme of the MV seems kind of cliche and cheap, I think it's very nicely directed =).

SMILE SMILE... TATATATATATA BE HAPPY. Whatever the lyrics are.

So remember how I told everyone that my friend Patrick is knitting himself a hat. Well, I guess I should apologize to him for saying that he's probably not going to finish it until winter is over. LMFAO. Anyways, he did a mighty fine good job, I don't think I'll EVER be able to knit a hat like that.



I'M DONE EAST ASIAN STUDIES MID-TERM. WHOOT! Physics and chemistry...

Man shot inside Pacific Mall

Feb 20, 2009 10:32 PM
Jesse McLean
Staff Reporter

A man has been taken to hospital with life-threatening injuries after being shot in the head inside the Pacific Mall. A single gunshot rang through the mall around 8:45 p.m., just 15 minutes before the building closed for the night. Steve Wong, a supervisor at Auto Parts in the mall, ran out of his shop to see a man slumped on the floor outside a mobile phone store, surrounded by security guards.
The shooter had already fled the scene.

"It's pretty scary. Nobody expects this to happen inside a mall," he said.
Police confirmed they are looked for a male shooter, wearing a black winter jacket.
Officers were stationed all around the mall, blocking pedestrians and vehicles from leaving the area.

"Nobody's leaving until we've collected all the information we can," said Const. Cathryn Harris of York region police.

Wong said he believes the violence will scare away some of the centre's customers.
"People won't want to come. They are shocked," he said.

Pacific Mall, located at Kennedy Rd. and Steeles Ave. E., is the largest indoor Asian mall in North America with more than 400 shops and boutiques.

Yo. WHAT THE HELL MAN?! PACIFIC MALL? Even though it's always been such a busy place, I've always considered it "safe". I don't know why. I mean, I used to take music theory classes there and I'd be there until the mall closes, waiting for my parents to come pick me up. What's wrong with people these days?

WHICH BRINGS ME TO ANOTHER POINT...


Dear Ms. Bitch-of-a-backup-dancer,
What the HELL have you been smoking days prior to this event? Because I'm sure crack doesn't even lead you to think kind of judgment. And because -I KNOW- you're so high right now that you can't even think at the intelligence of a snail, I'm going to be straightforward with you. That little chuckle you gave after you got off my boyfriend's lap is the LAST crumble of happiness you're ever going to EVER experience again. Not only did you offend me, Ms. Changmin's wife, Stephanie Luu, but you also ticked off 800 000 OFFICIAL CASSIES. There's probably another 2 million unofficial cassies waiting to chainsaw your ass off. So if you know what's good for you, LEAVE THE COUNTRY NOW!!! Or the cassies will torture you so bad, you'll wish you could crawl back into your mom's womb.

With lots of love for Yunho,
Stephanie

These are apparently China's four greatest beauties. No offense, but they all look the same to me. LMFAO. Like they're just sporting different hairstyles and clothing, but their face is pretty much the same. WTF?! If you're going to paint the four GREATEST beauties, shouldn't you vary the face a little?!

Anyways, as much as I hate sitting through the two-hour lectures and writing 10 pages of essays during tests, I'm really glad I took this course. I learned so much about Chinese history. Since I was born in Canada and my parents never educated me about China, I knew NOTHINGGGGG about the history of China. I didn't know there were so many dynasties and stuff. Ehhhh, pain in the neck to memorize but at least I know they exist.

Now about this MAO dude, so far, he hasn't shown up in our course yet. I'm dying to learn about him so I can find out what's the big deal with this guy. I mean, just the moment I said, "Who's MAO?" I felt the world crashing on me.
"YOU DON'T KNOW WHO MAO IS?!"
"YOU'RE KIDDING RIGHT?!"
"WHERE HAVE YOU BEEEEEEN?!"
"HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW?!!?!? YOU'RE CHINESE!!!"
"SHAME ON YOU!!!!"

Okay, it wasn't that dramatic, but you get my point. I feel like I haven't done enough this reading week. BLAH. I'll just work harder today.

I'm kind of excited for the little reunion I'm having with my elementary school friends. I'm a little worried about meeting one or two of them again because I remember in elementary school, they weren't the nicest people around... Nevertheless, I'm still dying to meet them again. Good or bad.

I say "lmfao" way too much these day. It's like "youtube" and "facebook", my fingers just automatically type those letters without much thought. HAHA.

TVXQ will be having their 3rd Asia Tour Concert from February 20th to February 22nd at the Seoul Olympic Park Gymnastics Stadium in Seoul. The boys will also set out to other cities such as Beijing, Shanghai, Taipei, and Bangkok. If you're just hearing about this concert now, don't get your hopes up. You probably won't be able to find tickets anymore, for the tickets were sold out in approximately five minutes.

That is so sad...HAHA. Not that I would've been able to go but you know, just the fact that I wouldn't even stand chance against those fans even if I could go makes me really sad.

I want them to come to Canada. I bet if BoA succeeds in America, SM is going to be sending DBSK over here too =).

I went on WIKIPEDIA today and I realized that the stupid drama DATING ON EARTH still hasn't been released yet. LMFAO. Did they ever finish filming? And if they did, why the HELL isn't it out yet?
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If you see me walking beside someone, it's not because I want to, but because you weren't brave enough to walk beside me. If you see me smiling, it's not because I forgot you, but because I got tired of crying over you. If you catch me leaving you, it's not because I've moved on, but because I know you can live without me. So if I fall in love with someone else, it's not because I want to, but because you weren't there to catch me...

So YESTERDAY was Valentine's Day and I must say that this year's Valentine's Day was by far the most memorable one.

Sherry, Julie and I went out for some Korean food at Yonge/Finch area at about 6/7-ish. When we got out of the car, my ass went completely numb from the cold. And all 3 of us were shaking like a leaf while we tried to buy a parking ticket! Then we just crossed the street to the restaurant. And although the restaurant was JUST across the street, I felt like I hiked through Antarctica naked. I don't remember what the restaurant's name is but it started with a T or something. I ordered my usual Pork Bone soup and it was actually pretty good. I actually wanted the Black Bean noodles because I've never had them before and I wanted to try them but I didn't see it on the menu. So whatever.

Needless to say, the first 5 minutes was a bitch as I tried to scrap all the meat off the bones first because eating. Worth it though. We had a good time catching up and laughing at how sad/depressing our lives have become. It's okay though, that's why we have each other =) LMFAO.

Then after we were done eating, we went over to some small Korean shop so Sherry could buy a gift. Only we spent like 20 minutes in that shop and Sherry ended up not buying anything and Julie bought herself four notebooks :S.

When we first drove to the restaurant, Sherry was driving and Julie sat in the passenger seat while I was at the back. When we drove home, Sherry was the driver and Julie sat at the back as she offered the passenger seat to me, which I still don't know whether or not I should be grateful. As we left the parking lot, Sherry had to make a left turn at the traffic light. And when the light turned green, instead of waiting for all the cars in the opposite lane to pass before making a safe turn, Sherry decided, "Hell! Let's be adventurous today." So the moment the light turned green, Sherry pulled a James Bond where she miraculously made a left turn with two full lanes of cars about to hit us and minutely missing a couple as they were crossing the street. And in the five long seconds that this happened, Julie and I were scared shitless as we screamed in horror as our life flashed before our eyes.

Two seconds after the near-death experience, Julie and I grabbed our chest and thanked the heavens that we didn't go into cardiac arrest. When we realized that we were still alive and breathing, we bitched at Sherry for nearly taking our precious lives away on Valentine's Day. I shoved gum into my mouth and chewed it ferociously to bring the air that was hammered out of my lungs when I was screaming nonsense as I stared Death in the eye. I think Julie felt dizzy or something because soon after she fell asleep in the car. LMFAO.

When we got to Sherry's house, we wanted to watch Tale of the Two Sisters, only to find that it wasn't on mysoju. So we decided to watch Baby and Me, only that we suffered like internet connection problems every 5 minutes. Julie needed a ride home, so both Julie and I left the place at 12 and so we didn't get to finish the movie.

Oh wells, I'll probably finish watching it today or something.

I'll never forget this Valentine's Day. Thanks guys.

Even though I'm not a die-hard FTTS fan, my heart still skipped a beat when I found out Decennium is their last album and they're going to go their separate ways. I really like FTTS, they're such good artists, I'm so sad that they're going to break off. If I'm so sad about them disbanding, I can't imagine how I would feel when DBSK disbands. ='(

I'm going out with friends later! I hope I can have a really good reading week. I have so much catching up to do. =)

I realized a couple days ago that there's a place called "Hell's Chicken" near Yonge and Steeles. I don't understand why anyone would want to name their restaurant 'Hell's Chicken', doesn't that imply that the chicken is really bad? LMFAO. I think it's a spinoff of the TV show "Hell's Kitchen", so that means the restaurant is probably owned by some Asian dude who has really bad Engrish.

Anyway, I have so much shit to do.

TO-DO FOR READING WEEK:
1. Catch up on CALC, BIO, CHEM, PHY, PSY, EAS
2. Do chemistry lab
3. Study for all the tests coming up after reading week
4. Make three icon posts- Su, Jae, Ho (maybe Min)
5. Meet up with Luci group and Cheryl group, maybe music group
6. Finish DBSK fic

Okay, this is it. No more changing layouts. HAHA. I think I've gone through enough already. I think I've always really liked this layout but because it was black I didn't like it. I have a thing against black backgrounds and white font but I figured that since I like this, why am I going to let something stupid like that hold me back. I'm so retarded sometimes. My brain just likes to set up these random restrictions and rules that no one gives a damn about, not even me, but I feel compelled to follow them just because they're "rules". And they're not even real rules, they're rules I make myself. LMFAO.

I'm a retard.

The only problem with this layout is that all my previous layouts pretty much had a white background, so all the text that I "hid" were the font colour white. Therefore... it's all going to be seen here. Whatever. It doesn't matter anymore. I'm too lazy to change it all.

Yesterday I met some really cool people. They were totally awesome, too bad I had to leave early... It's not everyday you meet people like that at U of T. I'm just upset that I had to miss Grey's Anatomy. BLAH.

The snow is melting and the temperature is getting warmer. I hope that stupid groundhog comes out to announce that spring is here. I've had enough of winter already. Winter in highschool was never so bad because I never actually had to walk outside that much. My parents drove me to school and I get driven home and all my classes take place INSIDE A BUILDING!!! I NEVER HAVE TO WALK OUTSIDE!!! Well, except for the short distance from the school building to my car -____________-.

Valentine's Day is tomorrow. So over-rated.

I swear there are WEEEEEEEEIRRRRD people in this world. I'm not weird AT ALL.

So yesterday I was on my way home on the subway and I fell asleep on the train. When I woke up, there was this girl who was sleeping beside me. And you know... everything was normal at first. And THEN, her head did this weird dip and her head leaned to the right... and I sat to the right of her. And before I knew it, she was sleeping on the upper half of my arm. And I'm just like WTF?!?!?!

Seriously, it was SOOOO AWKWARD for me. And the people around sort of just stared and laughed because obviously I had this REALLY uncomfortable look on my face. And then the subway (thankfully) stopped and it jerked her awake. And she woke up and she didn't even LOOK at me. Like, shouldn't she look up to see who's she been sleeping on?! And APOLOGIZE?! I mean, -I- LET her sleep on my arm without waking her up, doesn't that count for some kind of merit?

So then I realized she was Chinese. When the subway started moving again, she hung her head, then it did a little swing and she was back sleeping on my arm again. Like DUDE?! WHAT THE FLYING HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!? And this happened consecutively until she got off at Sheppard station. And not ONCEEEE did she look directly at me to see who she was sleeping on.

And because of her long, stinky (no jokes) hair, I never got a chance to actually SEE her face. I don't know what she looks like. And I can't believe I just let her sleep on my arm like that. I totally should have been like, "Hey yo? Are you okay? What's wrong with your head?" Like... I don't understand why her head didn't swing to the left, I mean, no one was beside her. GEEZ.

Stupid subway. I think if she just told me she was tired and she wanted to sleep, I'd be all right with it. But I don't understand how she could sleep on a stranger, wake up, not apologize or say anything, and then go back sleeping on a stranger. LEARN TO CONTROL YOUR SWINGY HEAD!!!! And GAWDDDD, the experience was just THAT much worse because of her smelly hair. *SIGH*

There are crazy people in this world. Thank God I'm not one of them. HAHA.

I'm so shitty tired. Okay not THAT tired, but more like physically exhausted.

This morning I woke up and felt like putting on mascara, I don't know why. All I had today was the psychology test. I go downtown, write it, and come home. But I don't know, I just felt like wearing mascara, and must I say that I did a pretty good job putting it on. Usually, it goes on in clumps or something. Well, you know, things never work when you REALLY want to them.

I went to write my test at the EXAMINATION CENTRE. I'm beginning to REALLY REALLY REALLY hate that building. -___________________-

When I get to Bloomington, I call my parents to come pick me up at the bus station because it's just too far of a walk sometimes. Especially after a test, I'm usually just too tired to drag my body home. Today, I kept on getting the busy signal so I just started to walk home in rage and anger. Seriously, I was in SUCH a bad mood. I never feel happy after tests. I don't know how I did on it... I know for sure I got a MC question wrong. DAMN IT!!!

When I finally got through, I was about halfway home so when my dad came to pick me up, it was like a minute drive. And clearly he could tell I was pissed off, so he tried to talk to me but I was just too tired to really give a shit so I gave him one word answers. I wasn't really mad, just frustrated.

I ate so much when I got home and I finally watched MY TUTOR FRIEND. Kwon Sang Woo is absolutely adorable. He totally plays the bad boy look very very very well. The more I think about it, I think my boyfriend shouldn't be the mushy gushy romantic type. I think that's too cheesy for me. I think the bossy, suave, motorcycle-riding guy is going to be the one to sweep me off my feet. I think, anyways. *SIGH* If only endings in life ended like that, I wouldn't be worried so much...

My first midterm of the semester- PSYCHOLOGY! I'm not done studying yet but I will be in about 3 hours. Well, almost done in 3 hours.

I'm so worked up about this because I promised myself that I would do better this semester and I definitely have to if I don't want to get kicked out of UofT.

I know I shouldn't be blogging right now but I can't help it. If I don't blog, I'll just be spending time resisting the urge to NOT blog.

On Friday, I subwayed to the EATON'S CENTRE and I met up with the BAYVIEW DECA people. I was really upset that Kulcsar didn't remember me. Like wtf?! It's only been like 6 months and after ALL THAT DAMN WORK I DID FOR HIM the least he could do is remember me. I'm so upset. I bumped into an elementary school friend too, he's definitely... changed? It's a good thing.

Okay, I think I've satisfied my blogging hunger. I better get back to studying.

Happy birthday Yunho.

Today I bumped into Ryan, the guy that used to work at the swimming pool receptionist desk. I used to see him every time I went to my swimming lessons. Although we didn't really talk before, we've always had that sort of... I don't know... mutual friendly connection?

I saw him today at the subway station. Figures. I see EVERYONE at the Finch subway station. So when we first saw each other, we just kind of stared at each other for a good like... I don't know... maybe five seconds? Then we smiled. And I walked up the stairs and towards the exit of the station. When I went through those twirling exit bars, I didn't know if I should wait for him and have a "small" talk since we haven't seen each other in about two years OR just leave the subway station quickly to avoid awkwardness. So I decided to walk VERY slowly, lmfao, okay it was slow for me, I think I was probably walking at a REGULAR pace for normal people. So I walked slowly because I figured that if he wanted to talk, he would be able to catch up and if he didn't want to talk, he would just... I don't know... avoid me. Right? So he catches up to me and he walks beside me for a minute and I see him in my peripheral vision but I pretend not to. He didn't speed up or slow down so I wasn't sure what he wanted to do. Eventually I couldn't take the awkwardness anymore and I just turned and tried to look surprised (lmao) and I was like, "Hi!"

And he goes, "HI!"

*awkward silence*

And I quickly just added, "We met at the pool, right? I saw you and I was like..." and yeah, I basically just rambled for a while. HAHA. Yeah that's me. I don't like awkward silences and so when people don't talk, I talk. And he takes the VIVA BLUE BERNARD and I take VIVA BLUE NEWMARKET so we didn't get to say much after that. I was sort of hoping that he was going to take my bus, since both buses go the same direction and the only difference is that my bus goes up to Newmarket and his bus stops at Bernard Avenue.

Oh wells... point being... SMALL WORLD!!!

I don't know what's up with me lately but I'm getting so attached to boys lately. BOYS. Seriously, I'm not the flirtatious type. In fact, I'm actually really bad at flirting but lately, I've just been going on a hatchet and I CAN'T STOP!!! Is this normal? Because I hate what I do. I try to control myself when I see boys, lmfao, but after a while, it just gets too hard on me and it starts to feel unnatural so I just let it all out. I blame everything on STRESS!!! I hope I don't become one of those really flirty annoying girls... because I've always hated those types of girls. They're just so fake and annoying and like... fake and annoying. LOL. SO. I WILL REMOVE MYSELF FROM BOYS UNTIL I LEARN TO CONTROL MYSELF.

I have this friend named Anoja, pretty close friend I must say, and we're pretty tight and all but... I hate it when she calls me stupid. HONESTLY, WE'RE BOTH STUPID!!! We act like retards together but I don't understand why -I'M- the stupid one when she's equally as dumb as me. And I mean dumb as in socially retarded, not like... mentally stupid. LOL.

Am I ranting too much?

Ugh... biology lectures....