I woke a little confused and dazed. Lack of sleep. That's what it does to you.

"Get up. He's waiting for you downstairs," I heard my mom shout from the door of my bedroom. I strain for a glimpse at my alarm clock. 2:30AM. 2:30AM. 2:30AM.

The time persisted in my mind as I tried to fall back asleep. The voice continued to echo, "He's still waiting for you downstairs."

Wait... I forgot to ask, who's waiting for me downstairs? I took another look at my alarm clock. 3:30AM. An hour went by? That quickly?

With all the strength I had in my aching body, I heaved myself into an upright position, only to find that I didn't have enough in me to actually pull myself out of bed. Letting my head drop back onto its pillow, I stared at the ceiling. I wonder if he's still waiting for me downstairs. Wait... who's waiting for me again?

Stop thinking. I refuse to think at this hour. It's 3:30AM. Go back to sleep.

I closed my eyes with some sort of drum pounding at the back of my head. A sudden jolt in my sleep woke me up again. I was moving. And sitting. Wait... I'm on the bus. So it was all just a dream. Thank god.

Where am I going again? Right. School. After scanning and deciphering the reality I was in, I realized I wasn't my station yet, so I closed my eyes and let myself catch a couple more snoozes that my poor body desperately needed. This... is nice. My eyes stinged from being awake for hours. Forgetting everything, I fell fast asleep.

"Last station. Everyone, please get off." I heard the bus lady announce on the bus. Waking up, I was startled by how dark it was. Wait... it's night time. Blanket? I'm... in bed? I looked at the clock. 1:30AM. What does this mean?

"Did you not hear me the first time? You have someone waiting for you downstairs." My mom, again. Not quite sure what was exactly happening, I decided to get up for the Hell of it. Who exactly is this person that's waiting for me?

No matter how lifeless my legs were, I refused to let them give up on me. Taking one step at a time, counting each and every one of them, I made it down the stairs to the den.

I flicked on the lights. No one was there.

"MOM! Who's waiting for me?"

"MOM!"

"MOM?!"

I went into the kitchen where the light was on. "Mom?" No one was in the kitchen. I turned off the lights and went back upstairs to my bedroom where I saw my mom waiting at my bed. "Mom?"

"You called me?"

Rubbing my eyes from tiredness, I mumbled, "No, you called me. Who's waiting for me?"

"Who's waiting for you?"

Yawning with a satisfying stretch before falling back into bed, I responded, "I don't know. You kept calling me. And you told me to wake up because someone was waiting for me downstairs."

"Sweetie, it's 2AM. Who would be waiting for you at this hour?"

"That's exactly what I thought."

Wrapping her robe tightly with her hands inside them, she pulled the blankets up to my shoulders. "Go back to sleep and don't think about anything else. You must be really tired."

"I am..." I closed my eyes peacefully.

"... and don't forget, you have someone waiting for you downstairs."

"What?" My eyes flickered open to see no one beside my bed. I looked at the time. 2:30AM.

Not being able to fall back asleep, I got up and went to the den to get some studying done. At 2:30AM.

All I want for Christmas are:
1. my transfer credits
2. a 72 or higher in Chemistry
3. 3.7 or higher on all my courses
4. my doushite piano transcript back
5. sleep~

I've been a good girl this year. Well, not really. But I will be a good girl after you give me everything I want, got that?

Sincerely,
Stephanie Chrysanthemum Luu
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I'm glad we had our short secret santa talk, we haven't had a conversation like that in a long time.

myself.

HAHA. I know I'm so full of it. But anyways, I was cleaning up my highschool binders and stuff. Okay, I wasn't exactly "cleaning" but I was going through them and seeing what I needed and what I didn't. And when I looked at my notes and homework, I was like, "WOW, I was so neat and organized," like I completely forgot the neat freak and perfectionist that I was.

I don't know if I am anymore... because I'm so behind and everything. I remember in highschool, I would never let myself fall more than a week behind in school work. Now I'm like 5 weeks behind in chemistry. PFFT. Well, if I could do it before, I can do it again, right?

I wish I could throw out my highschool stuff, but when I look at it... it's just so perfect, I couldn't make myself throw it out. Oh well, life's tough that way.

EDIT://
OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHH. I can't find the file of DBSK song that I've been transcribing... It's like not on the computer?! I'm -SO- not re-doing all that work.

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I FINALLY FOUND THE SONG ON SHERRY'S BLOG.
WHOOT WHOOT~
If anyone wants it, just message me. Or... for you computer freaks out there, you guys will know how to steal it off of me. I didn't block the link =).
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Okay, 28% is not my CHM139 mark. I repeat it is NOT my mark. Even though I didn't get back my test yet, I know FOR SURE it can't be my mark. I found the second test SO much easier than the first test, it's IMPOSSIBLE for my second test mark to be lower than my first.

Everyone's like, "What did you get on your CHM139 test?" And I'm like, "Oh, I don't know." And they're like, "Didn't you check online?" And I'm like, "Yeah it says 28% but I know that's not my mark. I got higher than that." And EVERYONE gives me like the "oh-you're-so-arrogant" look. Honestly, I'm not trying to be arrogant. I'm just saying that it's almost IMPOSSIBLE for me to get 28% on my second term test that I studied A WEEK for. Something MUST'VE gone wrong. I'm DYING to get my test back so I can just PROVE to everyone that it's not my mark.

Seriously, after I wrote the test, I was SO confident about it. You DON'T understand how confident I was. I was like 95% sure that I passed. And like 80% sure I got above a 60%. So... 28%?! WHERE THE HELL DID THAT COME FROM?!

I'm going to get to the bottom of this. Until then, I REFUSE to believe I got 28% on my test. And whoever marked the test is going to be burned in Hell for putting me through this stress. I hate chemistry. And it just so happens that all authority figures associated with chemistry are just stupid sucky people. LMFAO. No subjectism (if that's a word) there.

I am considering the SMALL possibility that I did get 28%... and in THAT case... it's not the end of the world? I don't know. If I can pull off a 90% on the exam, I might be able to still pull a 2.0 on the course... which is about 65%? Which... isn't THAT bad... considering that... most students drop in average about 20% in marks going from high school to university. And besides... that's like 65% WITHOUT a bell curve, I'm hoping for a year-end bell curve in this course. But some girl last year told me that the class was bell curved down because the average for the class was too high.

Whatever. It's ONE chemistry course out of my ENTIRE 4-years of undergrad. Medical schools simply just have to forgive me on this one slip.

So saying that the impossible happens and I do get 28% on my test that I HARDCORE STUDIED FOR for a week. That means for the exam... I should HARDCORE study for a month to get a 90%, right right right? Except... I don't have a month. My CHM139 exam is in like less than 3 weeks.

SHIIIT.


I get tears in my eyes just by looking at this picture. OHHH, the power he has on me.

Doesn't he just make you melt inside? I swear, he WILL be the death of me one of these days.

We all remember Changmin in his kitty-kissing days, and it seems like the former cute kitten has transformed into a sexy beast right under our eyes. While he cannot yet control his voice like the veterans, this baby can belt out those high notes like the best of them. Even if the members suggest the youngest is always in charge in TVXQ, when Changmin grins at the camera, we can still see some of that animal loving innocence from his debut years. Don't cry anymore Changmin, lest it gives all the fangirls (this one included) a reason to rush to your side and kiss the tears away!

Several flaws in this paragraph done by ChubbieBunnie on ALLKPOP. First off, what do you mean by, "...cannot yet control his voice like the veterans..." He can control his voice very well, mind you. And if we're talking about his belting, it's because he can reach some impossible octave. ANYONE who sings that high must be given some sort of lee-way to make mistakes. PLEASE, PEOPLE.

"...if the members suggest the youngest is always in charge in TVXQ..." Since when? Changmin just has his off days, don't make him sound so mean. Besides his death stare and power punches, he's harmless =).

"...lest it gives all the fangirls (this one included) a reason to rush to your side and kiss the tears away!" EXCUSE ME?! The only fangirl, who ALSO happens to be his wife, that is going to kiss his tears away is... YOURS TRULY. If anyone of you other fangirls lay one finger on him, you better start checking your apple juice because you'll bet I'll be peeing in it!

1. No top site.
Unlike Xanga, Livejournal, Wordpress, MSN Spaces (the list goes on), Blogger doesn't have a "TOP BLOG" or "FEATURED BLOGS", no blog is advertised, no blog is "better" than another. Who your readers are or who they will be are ultimately under your control. Isn't that nice? I love that power.

2. Personalized Layouts.
If you're an avid reader of mine (*ahem*ahem*BOWS*ahem*ahem*) you will know that I probably change my layout more often than I change my underwear. PFFT, no jokes. Want to pull a wedgie on me?

Livejournal, Wordpress and all the other blog sites have layouts that are too plain, not-customizable or they just don't have enough of a variety to please me.

3. I can change the structure of my "comment" system.
On most blogs, you usually have a permanent comment section at the end of each blog entry for readers to comment SPECIFICALLY on the one post. This very aspect drives me nuts. I hate having to check the end of every blog entry to see what comments are left for me. And comments that are left behind that are UNRELATED to the post annoy the shit out of me. I'm a control freak. This is why I have a CBOX, it's where all the crapload of comments can go in one little corner and leave the rest of my blog untainted. Beautiful.

4. Zip. Zap. Gone. In other words, my need for speed.
Like driving, I like to be quick on my feet. Blogging shouldn't take up more than 10 minutes of my day. Honestly, blogger is by far the quickest blog host EVER. You sign on, read your previous comments, make a post, publish and BAM, you're gone. Blogs on Livejournal and Wordpress, you have to go through a series of steps before you can read your comments, before you can update and before you can get your fucking ass off the site.

5. Simplicity is a bliss.
Ignorance, simplicity, same thing. You get my point. This is similar to the previous point I mentioned. Blogger is designed for you and for me and for everyone else who wants to blog. People who have no idea how the Internet works can still make a very decent and presentable website. On the other hand, blogger is also designed for people who know HTML coding better than the English dictionary. Unlike Wordpress and Livejournal, Blogger doesn't have all these gadgets and widgets everywhere playing mind games with you. Blogging shouldn't take that much brain power. Even the dumbest of all dumb asses should be given an equal right to blog.

This is why I love blogger so much. I even joined the fanclub for it on Facebook. How sad?
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"Have you ever noticed that anybody driving slower than you is an idiot, and anyone going faster than you is a maniac?"
-George Carlin
OH MY GOD. That's totally what I think when I'm driving!!!

"Why do they call it rush hour when nothing moves?"

"Trespassers will be shot, survivors will be shot again"
LMFAO! Yo man, I like fell on the floor laughing at this one. I'm so retarded.

"I'm not afraid to die. I just don't want to be there when it happens."
-Woody Allen

The one reason why I HATE to-do lists is because I never finish everything on them. After I cross out the first few items on the list, I lose my motivation to finish crossing everything out. HAHA. Instead now, I make lists titled, "to finish". I don't know why but having lists titled "to finish" rather than "to do" actually makes a difference. I don't know why. So anyways, here's the SHORT-TERM list of things I have to finish:

1. Catch up on math homework.
2. Catch up on biology lectures.
3. Catch up on chemistry tutorial questions.
4. Re-write EAS notes.
5. Finish transcribing DBSK's song.
6. Learn the mirotic dance.
7. Clean up my room.
8. Upload LOVE IN THE ICE onto youtube.
9. START STUDYING FOR FINALS.

Finals Timetable
EAS102 - Monday December 01 @ 1PM-3PM
MAT135 - Thursday December 04 @ 6PM-8PM
BIO150 - Monday December 08 @ 2PM-4PM
CHM139 - Thursday December 11 @ 2PM-5PM

I'm so glad I dropped physics. I'm so not looking forward to next semester. I actually finish on the 11th not the 19th. YAY! UT finishes exams on the 17th. That's not bad, right?

I haven't posted in AGES. This is so hardcore, it's like IB MAY EXAMS every single day or something. I hate this. Is this what university life is suppose to be like?

Anyways, I made a new layout, I made one for Sherry too. Funny thing is that I like her layout more than mine.

Okay, I'm so exhausted. I can't think anymore. I'll post more tomorrow.

I wasn't planning to blog today but I'm just so mad that I have nowhere to vent this anger so I shall (not-so) privately spam it here.

Okay, so I'm not like best best friends with this girl but you know... we have a good time together and stuff. I feel comfortable and all so obviously we've passed the awkward stage. In grade 12, well the summer before grade 12, we took a summer school course together and she was a fan of SUJU, PLEASE. She was so hopeless. So I introduced her to DBSK and from than onwards, she's been a PURE DBSK fan. We get along fangirling over them and their music. I think I've mentioned to her before that my favourite is Changmin, but she never really cared or paid much attention to it because her favourite is Jaejoong and I like Jaejoong too so we just both talk about him instead of Changmin... which I don't really mind.

TODAY, when we were talking about DBSK she was like, "WHY do you like Changmin, he's so stupid!"

And I was SO APPALLED that she would say something so horrific. So I replied, "What are you talking about?! Changmin is like the smartest out of the entire group."

And then she's like, "No, I don't mean that stupid. I mean he can't do anything. He has no talent. He can't sing or dance or compose music or anything." And I was so shocked. I think the anger on my face like... shocked her. LMAO. And then for like 5 minutes, I just couldn't talk to her because I was so mad she would say something so ridiculous. And then she just went on talking about Jaejoong and TOP from Big Bang and Hyunjoong from SS501. And she also went on talking about how on ALLKPOP they mentioned that the 3 of them are good friends and how she would love to hang out with them some day. I'M SO MAD. But you know... I didn't want to appear like a freak or something, so I just like hid my anger and smiled at everything she said. I didn't say much afterwards, lol, or I might've like exploded on her.

I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE SAID CHANGMIN IS STUPID?! Okay, I can understand if you don't like him because he's not your type or you don't think he's good looking because that's all based on opinion and everyone is entitled to their opinion. BUT HOW CAN YOU SAY HE'S NOT TALENTED?! Yes, he's not the greatest dancer in the world or the best singer in the world but come on, you like TOP but not Changmin? Yes, because TOP is just so hot and talented *rolls eyes* Oh wait... I don't know if that's sarcasm or not. LOL. TOP is pretty hot and talented. LOL. OKAY, MY POINT IS... she shouldn't have dissed Changmin in front of me. I don't even think I would've been so mad if she had said, "Ewww, Changmin?" But no she was all out like, "CHANGMIN IS SO STUPID!"

OH MY GOD. Okay. That was my all-out spazz. I feel MUCH better now. *SIGH* Just remind me to never talk to her about DBSK because if she starts dissing Changmin again I might lash out in angry fangirl mode and that would not be good for her health.

=). My heart now feels at peace. Back to work work work.

LMFAO. It's true. I can't believe my mom just told me about it today.

She was telling me this one time we were shopping, I was about 3 at the time, and I really had to go pee. At the age of 3, I didn't wear diapers or any of the potty-training pants anymore because I learned how to control my bladder... well for the most part anyways. So my mom walked me to the washroom but the line was like... SO FREAKING DAMN LONG. She said that we waited almost 20 minutes in line or more. Apparently, I was whining and complaining about how I was going to pee in my pants if I waited any longer. And when she noticed my face turn a flush red, she knew I wasn't lying. PFFT, thanks mom, you couldn't just trust my words, eh?

So she walked pass the line and went straight into the washroom and to the sink counter and I just did it there. LMFAO. I don't remember this AT ALL. So I guess I wasn't embarrassed about it at the time. Because I do remember embarrassing moments that I had as a kid. I asked her what people thought when they saw a half-naked 3 year-old peeing in the sink, she was like, "Oh they gave me a disgusted look and started muttering under their breaths, but then with my minimal English I just asked them if they would rather have the 3 year-old kid pee on the floor and all over their shoes. And they just all shut up." LMFAO. Nice mom. I gotta hand it to you. You're the best mother in the world.





I think I've been saying that for the past 3 weeks. LOL. I'm so behind. Actually, I'm not "THAT" behind, I think it's because I don't really understand Chemistry so I feel so behind in everything else.

WHO SAYS THAT?!

Yesterday, people were handing out free condoms on the streets along St. George. At first I thought they were handing out candy because they were all dressed up for Halloween and all that, but when I heard them say "free condoms", I was so turned off. And I can't imagine why people would volunteer to do that... I think it's so embarrassing. I would never do something like that.

I SWEAR I didn't take this picture yesterday. I took it a while ago and I just decided to uploaded today because I have time. I took this picture like 3 weeks ago on the subway. Look at all those empty seats around her. No seriously, the subway was PACKED but I think the moment people saw her, they like backed off... LOLOL. And she has like some weird design drawn on her forehead. WEIRD. REALLY WEIRD. Okay, goths aren't colourful like that... so I don't know WHAT she is. And her hair... seriously... this picture doesn't do her much justice (if any) but if you saw her in real life, you'd be scared shitless. She can be the female Andre Kim but WITH hair.

I'm always blogging about my boring life. LOL. Nothing happens nowadays. I have pictures from FLC, which I'll upload onto FACEBOOK later.

CAN SOMEONE EXPLAIN THAT TO ME, PLEASE?! LMFAO.