So despite all the shit that's happening with midterms and university, I still try to make my life bearable. So what do I do? I youtube DBSK and watch dramas and try to get a full experience on FUN university life. So anyways, I was on youtube watching Come to Play with DBSK on it. And Jaejoong was telling us this bad habit of Yunho sleeping with his mouth open, lmao, and even though it's an embarrassing thing, and most people would find it such a turn off, I think it makes him so hot. LMAO.

Honestly, I still love him to death.

Okay, that's my Yunho spazz. I have one more tutorial to go to~~~

I have my BIO MIDTERM in like... 4 hours?! AHHHHHHHHHH.

I'm listening to Se7en's Your Number, which I love, I don't care what anyone says, but I STILL can't decipher what he says at the bridge. Throughout the whole song, his pronunciation is so good but then you get to the bridge and he says, "See you alsdjflkajsdklwkoe."

OKAY, BACK TO STUDYING.

I'm taking a short break before going back to Chemistry. I just noticed how behind I am in Chemistry. Actually, I didn't JUST notice that, LOL, I noticed it a while ago but I didn't really care.

It's so tiring. I hate life science. Keeping up with the work is really hard. Thursday I have my biology midterm. I'll do great. Says me.

Okay back to preparing for my Chemistry lab...

Okay, so I'm desperately trying to catch up on CALCULUS and I feel so hopeless. Honestly, there are so many questions!!! WHAT THE FUCK!?

You know in Sailor Moon, where there's the evil witch who sucks the soul of the people. That's what I feel like when I look at a math textbook (or anything textbook for that matter). I look at the textbook and it starts sucking the soul out of me and when I'm done looking at it, I feel so lifeless and depressed, like my soul has wandered off to the Gates of Hell. Then all I want to do is sleep and wait for my spirit to come back to me.

I am so tired right now. I don't understand my chemistry lab. LOL. I hate how everything in university is so easy at the beginning and it makes me think, "Oh psh, whatever. I don't need to study/do my homework." And then about 2 weeks later, the course textbooks smacks you in the forehead and you're like, "SHIT! What are we learning right now again? Wait... this is chemistry? Why the fuck does it look like physics?"

I need to finish math as soon as I can and just sleep. OH MY GOSH... I've been eating so much lately. Whenever I'm stressed, I just pig out in my kitchen before doing my work. HAHA. What a smart way to handle stress. Back then when I'm stressed, I would clean like a maniac but I guess I've cleaned so much that there really isn't anything to clean anymore. LOL. So now I eat... I guess I'm "cleaning" the kitchen.

BLAH. I missed the episode of Grey's Anatomy again. I suck. You suck. Everything sucks. Except for Changmin. And Yunho. They'll never suck.

Okay, two posts in one day, whatever.

So anyways, I don't know if this happens at OTHER universities but at UT, we change lecturers every time we're done a specific unit. Like... every time we learn a new unit, someone new will come and teach it. So anyways, we just had our last term test and our old teacher came in to give us "feedback" on how well we did.

Do you know what our average is? LOL. It's a 45!!! And no, not 45 out of 50. It's 45%. OUR CLASS AVERAGE FOR THE TEST IS 45 PERCENT?! And so immediately when he said that, I was like, "YES! BELLCURVE BABY!"

But then he goes, "I'm not bellcurving it." I think my heart just sort of stopped at that moment. WHY!? IF THE CLASS AVERAGE IS 45, WHY AREN'T YOU BELLCURVING IT?!

His reason is that the test was easy and that everyone SHOULD'VE done really well on it. And the fact that we DIDN'T do well on it just shows that we're not at the university level yet. OKAY?!

Well, at least everyone is drowning with me. LOLOL. I think IB has taught me well. Like I see some people panicking and they're all freaking out but I'm just like, "MEH." Because I KNOW I'll do well at the end anyways. It's not that big of a deal. And I don't feel upset at all. I'm just a little shocked that he's not bellcurving it. It's so strange. Usually if the class average is below a 50, the prof will bellcurve it. *SIGH* Okay, I have one more tutorial to go to, then I'm heading to Bayview to bitch at Mr.Tse and Trefler.

... the only reason why I think TVXQ deserves it is because there are only a few people in this world that can touch shit and turn it into gold. TVXQ is one of them, I am the other.

DUDE, WHEN I READ THAT LINE I TOTALLY FELL OFF MY CHAIR. IT'S SO TRUE. If there was like a "what-is-the-truest-statement contest" that phrase would TOTALLY win. Well, actually... maybe "Yunho is the hottest man alive" would win. They would tie for first place.

Oh and I also heard SHINee sing DBSK's MIROTIC... and I was so impressed. They can actually sing. I love Key, Jonghyun, and Onew. I actually really love how they sang that song.

Okay, I better start studying for my quiz today. LOL.

I'm trying to keep things simple, damn it.

I wish I didn't have all these stupid obstacles in my way. Anyways, it's decided. I'm dropping physics this semester. I think I just started off the school year on the wrong footing... I'm sure I'll do better next semester. HAHA.

Okay, being optimistic here, I know I can pull through all this shit. It's too complicated to blog about but I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about. WHATEVER. MEDICAL school is the only thing I have on my mind. All these people, friends and counselors, are like, "What are you going to do if you don't get into medical school?" I don't have a plan B. I think by not having a plan B, I'm banking my entire life on this entrance into medical school, so I put myself in the mindset that I don't have any other choice but to go all the way.

I knew getting into med school would be hard, but I didn't actually realize how hard it would be until I read the requirements for the U of T Medical School, which is... one of the plainer and more regular med schools in Canada.

Apparently, it's easier to get into med school in the states but now I think about it, I don't know why I wanted to go to the states. What do they have there what I can't find here in Canada? Meh, whatever. I WILL take physics. I WILL get my transfer credits. And I WILL make sure I meet all the requirements for med school.

I'm almost all caught up in everything! ALMOST. It's going to feel so nice once I am caught up. I made two new friends =). LOL. I sound so loner-ish. But it's true! I'm such a loner at UT. Both of them are from my BIO LAB. One's an international student, she's so nice. She speaks Mandarin and English pretty well. The other one sort of reminds me myself. We're both sort of crazy, I think we "click" but we're not that comfortable with one another yet since we just sort of met. One of the girls introduced us to this friend of hers who she apparently looks like Jung Kyung Ho from I'M SORRY I LOVE YOU. When we saw him though, it was like, "WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOUR EYES?!"

Honestly, the guy looked NOTHING like Jung Kyung Ho. They do not resemble each other AT ALL. He's cute though. But it's SO obvious that he has a crush on her though, like my friend. And she sort of knows it too, so she's like, "You should go after him to get him off my back." Gee... thanks.

It's all cool.

Anyways before I go back to work, I MUST comment on Boa's Eat You Up American MV. IT SUCKS ASS. I think that's by far one of the WORST MVs I've ever seen. WHY WOULD SM LET THAT BE THE MV SHE USES TO DEBUT IN THE US?! Anyways, the whole thing did really look cheap, especially the part where she sort of does a solo dance against this graffiti-ed wall. It really just looked like the people found some random brick wall and made it the background of her solo dance. And what's with the random flashes of this guy in the middle of the MV? Ehhhh... totally sucked. I'm so disappointed.

I don't know what's up with my these days but I get mad so easily. Like the smallest things that happen piss the fuck out of me. I've been swearing a whole shitty lot too, every other word is either shit or fuck or crap or bitch. LOLOL.

Seriously, I don't know if I'm just hanging out with the wrong crowd or I've just been SO stressed lately. I have to say that back then I handled stress pretty well. In fact, I work WELL under pressure because I got things done and I got things done well. But now? Now when I'm stressed, I just sort of go into shut down mode and all I want to do is sleep, surf the net, watch TV, practice the piano, basically, do EVERYTHING else BUT the work.

I say I'm not living up to this university standard. I still feel like a highschool student trying to do university-level work. I don't know man.

I don't know if it's because I'm an IB veteran but I've learned to doubt ALL my sources, well, except for the primary ones anyways. So nowadays, when people tell me stuff that happens in the Korean Entertainment industry, I don't believe it. I used to, but now I'm so skeptical about it. Back then I heard all these rumors about SM people beating artists and shit because they didn't do what they were asked to do. AND I even remember feeling so heart-broken because I heard Max got slapped because he was unwilling to kiss some random girl on-screen because he didn't want to waste his first-kiss like that.

First of all, how do people know about this?! Did Max say it in some interview that I didn't watch? Second of all, what kiss? I didn't see Max kiss any girl. So like... if SM wants you to do something and you don't do it, you get beaten and in the end, you don't have to do it? WHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTT?! The story makes no sense whatsoever. Of course, so long as Max is labeled SM, I don't think he'll ever tell us, but if he doesn't say anything, and no one from SM can confirm it, how can we trust this "information"?

I know it's true that SM doesn't pay enough because TONY AN, himself, said in an interview that he asked SM for more money and LEE SOO MAN was all like, "I even pay for your gas, what are you complaining about?" Which I don't know who's side to take? But I think everything they have pretty much belongs to SM? Like the place they live in, their cars and stuff? I don't know.

I also hate watching youtube videos and when the artist doesn't perform so well live, all these comments are like, "Oh they're sick that week." Oh man, what a coincidence, eh? Every time they suck, it just so happens it's because they're sick. You're not the mom or dad, how would you know he/she has a cold?! I don't think artists publicize to the world every time they have a "cold".

Okay and the last thing that has been pissing me off is the BIG BANG VS DBSK. Okay people, can someone please tell me WHAT'S THE DAMN POINT OF THIS BATTLE?!

Honestly, DBSK is going to kick BIG BANG's ass to the end of the universe. And if DBSK doesn't win, Cassiopeia will probably go murder Big Bang and their VIPs. Get real. This is DBSK we're talking about. LOLOL. And I'm not comparing them on the basis of talent because I think both groups have a lot of talent but I'm just saying popularity wise, DBSK has raided Korea and Japan and most of the world with their hotness. This is just reality. I don't understand why any band would go up against DBSK, unless it's like Shinhwa or something because I know they're "up-there" too.
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I remember when I was younger, my mom said, "You're going to grow up to look and be like Teresa Teng."

PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT. OKAY MOTHER! But actually, I did sort of look like her because I had those puffy cheeks and my mom blew dry my hair all puffy too so I sort of looked like the baby Teresa Teng. But I sang like a dying elephant. My voice is nowhere NEAR the legendary Teng.

But when I was younger and I sang, people would smile and sing along and think I was cute. Now when I sing, everyone's just like, "SHUT UP!" HAHAHA. It's okay, really, I'm not offended by it because I know I can't sing either. I try though.

I think deep down, I've always wanted to become a singer but I never really faced that dream head on because I know I can't sing well. I don't tell anyone because I know they'll laugh. My dad was like, "Entertainment circle? Oh, I wouldn't mind, I'd still be proud of you. But what exactly do you want to do? Acting? Dancing? Not singing, right?" And that's my cue to give him my hateful glare.

The 2008 SM auditions for Toronto are today. I keep telling myself that I want to go for the free stuff but is that really true? Or do I just want a chance to see if I could really sing in front of an audience. It's the sort of thing I think I'll regret the rest of my life if I don't go. BUT I'M SO FUCKING BEHIND IN PHYSICS. It feels like I'm always doing physics but I'm still behind. Line ups are the auditions are insane, everyone on SOOMPI says, "You at least have to wait 2 hours." So transportation is 2 hours there, 2 hours back, and let's just say I wait the minimum 2hours in line. That's 6 hours of Saturday completely gone. If I fail my midterm and I didn't do well in the audition, that's like... like... missing a bird with two stones.

I think I should just keep to pursuing my dream to be a doctor. That's what I need to focus on. Because I do want to make a difference in the world. I want to be able to help people. Being a celebrity can come later on in life, or maybe next life. For now, I only have enough room in my life for one dream. And that's to become a doctor.

As I've mentioned in my previous post, most of my pictures got deleted and I'm just so heart-broken.

SOOOOO I've decided to spam like no tomorrow on this post.

WARNING: Pictures may be inappropriate for young viewers. Viewer discretion is advised.

Errrrr... Yoochun, I think you two were suppose to do a CUTE pose, not a retarded one.

Okay these pictures are THE HOTTEST pictures on the net. It should be illegal to even own these pictures. LOL. Seriously, if you don't do anything with your life, do this, CLICK ON ONE OF THE PICTURES. Seriously, the pictures are so HQ you'll be blinded. It's just because the pictures are thumbnails here, so you can't experience the full explicit hotness of it. Honestly, click on a picture. You haven't lived life to the fullest if you haven't seen a HQ picture of Yunho dancing.











Sorry but the hotness has now come to an end. Please stay on the page to see...

the dancing GORILLA! Okay, I don't even know if he's dancing anymore. WHAT IS HE DOING?!

I love these candid shots. I don't know why.

Dear Micky,
Please get yourself a new wig.


Max looks really pale here, maybe it's the flash?

What happened? He had such nice hair colour before? I think the colour is TOO RED.

Is Jaejoong wearing blue contacts? It looks nice. He's so pale. *envy*

I think it's because I deleted my stephanie.0418@gmail.com account, so all my pictures on that account are completely gone. So all the posts that had pictures in them... completely disappeared. I just spent the last 15 minutes deleting all the posts with pictures in them... it's so sad. I don't know why I give a shit about this, but I hate "not-viewable" pictures...

Anyways, this means so many of my DBSK pictures are lost. And all my phone pictures are gone too because once I upload them onto the internet, I sort of know that they'll be there forever... unless of course, I delete the damn account. I can't believe it didn't hit me that if I delete my account, all my pictures would be gone. I'M SO SLOW!

This also means that I can do the "TOP 10 HOT GUYS" post again because I had to delete it. LOLOL.

I have midterms now.

Yesterday's CHEMISTRY midterm TOTALLY flew over my head. I have NO IDEA what the HELL was going on. The test wasn't that bad in terms of length, it was 12 MC questions and 2 short answers. Okay, the short answers had like a gazillion parts to it, but nonetheless, 2 short answer questions.

The MC wasn't bad. I think if I ace the MC part, I can still pass. LOL. The short answer questions... I had NO IDEA what the HELL they were asking. The test was 1.5 hours long and I finished it 20 minutes early and left. HA! WHATEVER. I'm so worried about my GPA being below 60 because if it does drop below... I'm kicked out of UT. My parents would probably do a hundred cartwheel flips and dig a 2 metre hole and ground me into it.

SM 2008 AUDITIONS are coming up! I want to go get free stuff. I don't know if I want to go through the audition process though... I'm trying to weigh out the tradeoffs here... It sounds sort of fun though. Like you go in, sing and do the rhythm test and go out with free stuff. LOL. I heard they play SM artists' MVs while you're waiting in line and I'm just like, "Wouldn't that make you feel really sucky because you're watching these gorgeous and talented people perform?!" But I guess it could be motivational because you could think, "Oh, if I make it into SM, I'll be just like them!"

Okay... I have to study for PHYSICS now. PFFFFFFFFT, what's the point?!

OKAY NOW I MUST RANT ABOUT YESTERDAY'S CHEMISTRY LAB.

So thank God my partner from last week wasn't able to make it to yesterday's lab and it JUST so happens that this other guy's partner couldn't make it either, so he and I were partners for the lab. And of course... it was a little awkward because we didn't really know each other. But anyways, immediately, he went to go get the wet materials so I just figured that I should get the dry materials and get started. So I pick up all these tubes and shit from this container that the TA had set up for us... and you know, I hate using pipette tubes because it's so hard to use and if you don't use it properly it causes inaccuracy.

We needed 1ML of distilled water to put into a test tube. And we were suppose to use the stupid pipette to take out 1ML. But of course, I didn't really know how to use it properly so I just stuck with using a small graduated cylinder. Honestly, I don't see anything wrong with that. And I STILL don't see anything wrong with that. As long as I get 1ML of distilled water, does it REALLY matter HOW I get it? But anyways, some old man... he's probably the head of chemistry or whatnot, walks by and he's like, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" And I was like... "Errr, I'm measuring... 1ML of... water?"

And he's like, "Didn't the TA teach you to use this?" And he holds up the pipette and he like threw it down again. I was just like... WTF?! And the reality is, no, our TA ACTUALLY didn't teach us how to use it. In fact, she didn't even really tell us to specifically use it. She just put it into the container that we were suppose to pick up and use for our lab. I didn't want to get my TA in trouble, so I didn't answer his question. Then he was was fumbling through my other test tubes and he's like, "Where's your partner?" And I pointed to the guy across the room trying to get the wet materials. And he's like, "Get him over here."

And I just thought to myself, "SHIT. WHY THE FUCK IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?"

So I bring my partner back to the lab bench and the old guy is all like, "What did you put in that container?" And my partner looks at it and goes, "Dye."
And the old man is like, "Why would you put dye in a container that is labeled bleach?" And I was like... OMG. HOW DID HE KNOW MY PARTNER WAS HOLDING A BLEACH CONTAINER?! Like, I didn't even know.
And my partner apologized and I just took the container away from him and ran to wash it so that I could escape the old man's wrath. When I came back, I saw him walking away shaking his head.

ARGH. What's up with that dude? He should go die with the rest of the chemistry textbooks I've burned. Okay, filling up dye in a bleach test tube is pretty bad. HAHA. I can't even defend my partner here. But using a graduated cylinder to measure instead of a pipette, to me, isn't that big of a deal. The next time I see the old guy, I'm going to PURPOSELY take out a fucking graduated cylinder and just randomly start measuring things with it, just to piss the living shit out of him. LOL. And this was all before my CHEMISTRY midterm. So after my lab, I was still fuming with anger and equally scared shitless for the test. CLEARLY, I didn't walk into the test with the right mentality.

My partner was really nice throughout the lab. I got lost halfway and he cleared up the confusion for me. Thank GOODNESS for smart lab partners. He's actually really smart, I don't understand why he filled up a bleach container with dye. Maybe it was nerves or something, because he had the test too that day and he was a little worried since he didn't study the last few chapters.

I so would've bitched at that old man if he didn't look like someone I would have to work with one day. I mean, what if he turns out to be some important researcher that I have to work with 3rd year or something? So... I'll just let him go this next. Next time, I'll be sure to send Yoochun after him. Then he'll be sorry. PUHAHAHA.

TOMORROW IS CHEMISTRY MIDTERM! AHH! HELP!

I finished my lab from last week =) But I have to prep for my lab tomorrow... RAWR.
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So I was just on Julie's blog and the song "Proud" by DBSK was playing on her playlist. It used to be such a beautiful sweet song to me. It's still beautiful but I feel so sad when I listen to it now.

I don't know WHY but the song makes me think about SO MANY things and brings me to memory lane. Unlike Hug, which also makes me sad, I can ACTUALLY listen to Proud. Seriously, when I hear Hug, I just want to run out of the room. I don't know if it's because I'm just SO SICK of it now or if it's because it's just so nostalgic. Proud is nostalgic too, but in a different way. ALL THEIR OLD SONGS ARE NOSTALGIC. I actually wasn't into Korean stuff when they first debuted. In fact, I actually didn't understand how Chinese people who don't understand Korean could even listen to Korean music. I just found it so strange. I remember I met this girl named Sabrina, and she told me she wanted to cut her hair like Hero. And I was just like, "Dude, who names himself Hero? How gay." LOL.

Then my friend Julie posted on her blog about the Yunho drink incident. I remember her saying something along the lines, "I don't understand why anyone would want to poison someone so hot."

I looked at the picture of him and I was like, "Dude, what's so hot about this guy? I can find a guy like that anywhere." PFFFT. I was so delusional. And she kept on talking about how heart-broken she was and how the fan should be arrested. I was so passionless about this. I think I read the blog entry and didn't even bother commenting on it because I had nothing to say (that wasn't offensive).

Then one night, grade 11, I believe, I was desperately trying to finish a WORLD LIT essay for IB. A Korean friend msns me, "Check out this link."

"Err... I'm trying to finish an essay."
"No seriously, it's like 4 minutes. Just watch it."

I ended up watching it and it turned out to be DBSK's infamous RISING SUN. From Yunho's sweat at the beginning to Max's high note scream to the sunset ending, my eyes were FIXED to the screen. I couldn't believe it. Five hot guys (okay, maybe four) were totally burning down my computer screen. The moment Max Changmin appeared on screen, his smexiness totally captivated me. And when he reached the high-note scream, I think my mind was twirling around in circles. SO DAMN HOT. I asked the Korean friend to send me more videos of them. Next in line, he sent me the Hug MV. When I saw Max Changmin with the cat, I said to myself, "That's it. We just got married." Yeah, that kind of impulsiveness doesn't happen often with me. Trust me, I'm not usually like that. LOL. Afterwards, I youtubed all their videos and listened to all their songs. Well, almost all their songs. I knew my favourite (that isn't even the word) is Changmin, followed by Yunho... my least favourite (that isn't even the word) Yoochun. I didn't like how he had hobo hair in Rising Sun and no facial hair in Hug... yet he was shaving. Like... what? What's his concept again? I'm not getting it. Then in TONIGHT, he spoke broken English... which totally turned me off. It's either you speak it or you not, don't give me that inbetween stuff, I'll think you have Down Syndrome or something.

Oh and just for the record, that essay I was writing that night turned out like shit.

I remember going to school the next day and running to Sherry and telling her my new discovery of THE GODS FROM THE EAST. It just so happens that she's also a fan of them. We were friends before, but after knowing that we share a common interest in DBSK, I must say, we TOTALLY bonded. I remember in Math Class with Shukster and English class with Berish, all we did was talk about the videos we watched last night of DBSK. LOLOL. We watched their short Banjun Dramas to interviews to game shows, you name it, we watched it.

I remember when we went on a field trip to Hart House to watch Hamlet, on the bus, all we did was listen to DBSK's English version of Hug and tried to decipher what they were singing. Even though they had a thick accent, we just found it so cute. In fact, we admired their ability to sing in English and provide us with "multiple interpretations" of the lyrics. LMAO.

I remember falling in love with I BELIEVE, TONIGHT, RISING SUN, MY LITTLE PRINCESS. I also LOVED THE WAY U ARE, even though the MV was a little weird. I remember when I listened to the Chinese versions of those songs, and I thought to myself, "Whoa, my Chinese must REALLY suck because I have not shitty idea what they're saying."

I remember when O came out and Sherry and I watched the MV. We were just like (*&#!^@GHJGD*&^. ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL US WITH YOUR HOTNESS OR WHAT?! Max's hair wasn't the greatest, but then again, compared to Yoochun's tribal bird nest, it wasn't actually that bad. Yunho and Junsu just became so much hotter.

I started watching Xman and Heroine 6. I started listening to other Korean artists such as Fly to the Sky, BoA, Jang Ri In.

I remember loving the song ON&ON, YOU ONLY LOVE, HEY!GIRL, GET ME SOME. Sherry and I both loved the song ON&ON until I pointed out to her the "HUM HUM HUM HUM HUM" in the middle of the song... and from then onwards, we couldn't listen to the song without laughing our asses off.

Afterwards, DBSK broke into Japan and dominated the music industry there. Again, they didn't fail to entertain us with their music. Max's hair at the time pissed the fuck out of me. I wasn't grooving the long stuff. I'll never forget the time when Sherry told me that he and I share the same hairstyle. *shoots myself* I mean *shoots Sherry*

Choosey Lover was the first PARTAY song that we all enjoyed from them. Except, none of us really knew what a choosey lover and what the random compass directions in the song meant. The MV for Summer Dream had too much water in it. I also remember how every single drop of water in the MV was SLOW-MO to the MAX. Jaejoong didn't just DRINK the water, he had to have some of it spill at the corner if his mouth, in which the camera caught it at the perfect angle and slow-moed it so the rest of the world could be taunted by his hotness. Changmin just randomly dunked his head under a hose. WTF?! And he had long hair at the time. WTF?! So when he shook his hair dry, it looked like my friend's pet dog. WTF?!

Ride On had one of the dirtiest lyrics ever. TOGETHER was the really dumb song that never really got much attention and the MV was DBSK in cartoons. O________o. Should I note that those are probably the hottest cartoons ever drawn. Purple Line soon came out and none us could help but wonder what the Hell is the purple line? And what the fuck does it mean? Junsu attempted to explain it... something about horizons? Uhhhhhhh... okay?

Their two famous Japanese albums FIVE IN THE BLACK and T were heavy hitters. Nothing stood out though. I loved DEAD END, PROUD, ZION, PROMISE, HELLO AGAIN, PURPLE LINE, DARKNESS EYES, NO, LAST ANGEL, LOVE IN THE ICE.

Now they're back in Korea with their new MIROTIC CD and they can't be ANY hotter than they are now (okay, maybe they can). Yunho has turned into the fucking God of SMEXYNESS. He RULES that kingdom. I really liked Max's hair at the beginning, then the stylist had to ruin him again by cutting it. I know, good things don't last as long as bad things. I mean, look at Yoochun, when is ever going to be on par with the other 4 boys?

Even though I've stopped google-ing and youtube-ing them every single day, I still listen to their songs, watch their MVs, set my DP on msn as their picture...

I know they'll disband one day... and when they do, I want to personally be their to say goodbye. HAHA, maybe that will be my first time seeing them live... and last... I guess.

<3

I have my CHEMISTRY midterm coming up, I'm so fucked over it's not even funny.

Whatever, you suck for being such a bitch and not understanding. Don't give me that look like I'm so pathetic because life science is a lot harder than whatever you're doing. Sure, the cutoff rate for your program is higher, but it's a lot harder for us to actually stay in the program and do well. Seeing as I have more class hours than you and I actually worry about money issues, unlike you who can just get money off your parents, AND I still make time to come see you, it's proves that I'm just a more awesome and better person than you could ever be =). I hope you read this and know that I'm talking about you and your stupid bitchiness. Eh, I knew I shouldn't have expected that much from someone who talks about everyone behind their backs.

I'm going to study really really really hard this weekend. I know I can do well on midterms. I hope the damn IB thing gets sorted out too. Stupid TREFLER.

Yesterday on campus, I bumped into a guy who taught at the same pool when I did my NLS. I swear he should've recognized me, afterall, who can forget the heat stroke incident? But he didn't say anything, he just randomly pushed me out of the way and walked ahead of me. I think that's his way of saying hi... I'm almost positive he goes to RYERSON though, what's he doing at UT? Meh, whatever. He's known for his awesome skills in rotating girlfriends every 2 months. HAHA. When I did NLS, I totally thought he had a crush on this other girl in my class, who's like 2 years younger than me.

Oh, there were these HUMAN statues, OH MY GOSH, they looked so real. I wonder how long it took them to put on makeup. I tried talking to them, but obviously, they wouldn't say anything.






Classes from 9 to 9 is INSANE HELL. By 7 o'clock, I just wanted to stab myself with my pen. I ate breakfast and I didn't get anything else until 9 at night. That's like 12 hours of pure working, running around to classes, and brain work. I'm so tired and hungry. I think I'm so hungry and tired that I'm not hungry and tired anymore. Tomorrow, I have to leave early though, because my parents have to leave early... and I need a ride from them. Damn it. Damn VIVA. I'm glad the government isn't doing anything about it though, honestly, those stupid VIVA drivers don't need anymore money than they're already given. I agree that driving a bus around town is a lot harder than I make it to be, but that's why they're paid 20 bucks. LIFEGUARDS make 15 bucks. And a lifeguard, as a full time job, doesn't even get all the benefits that stupid bus drivers get. Honestly, there's a reason why you're a bus driver, it's obviously because you didn't get a proper education and you're just doing your best to make ends meet. $20/h, I think, is a reasonable wage rate and indeed needs not to increase.

Besides, if wages of workers increase, the bus fares will probably go up too. So... SCREW YOU VIVA BUS DRIVERS. YRT sucks though. It's like slow, there are a gazillion stops, and the ride feels so much more bumpy.

I met a new friend today in my biology lab. She seems pretty cool. She and her boyfriend are the FREAKING CUTEST THING EVER. Yeah, I'm green with envy. She's really nice and she seems normal. On Tuesday, I'll show her a picture of DBSK and see if she passes the test. LOLOL. I'm just kidding. She's probably the first normal/nice/cool/easy to talk to/not nerdy person that I've met at UT.

My phyics lab was HELL. It wasn't even THAT hard, it was just the people I work with made it so difficult. I felt so left out because I was the only Asian in the group and they were obviously totally ignoring me. And everything I say, they just tell me it's wrong and they "correct" me by re-wording everything I JUST said. Geez. Chillax people.

Ugh... this totally sucks. UT sucks.

OH MY FUCKING GOSH, did I tell you guys about my MATH TA?! Like honestly, if he can be a TA, I can be a TA too. LOL. He knows what he's doing, but he can't teach at ALL and he's got such a thick accent it doesn't even sound like English. So I asked him a math question and he wrote on the board, "A + B = C". Obviously, that wasn't the answer, but I'm just keeping things simple as I explain to you his extrodinary teaching skills. And then after writing that, he turns to the class and asked, "Did everyone understand how I got C?"

And I didn't understand so I put up my hand and said, "No sir, how did you get C?"

And he was like, "Okay, this is what I did..." he turns to the board and right beneath it, he writes, "A + B = C". And he goes, "Did you see that?"

And I nodded and he smiled and said, "That's how I got C." And I was like ..........................................................O_____________o

And the whole class was like, "Errr..."

Some people just left the tutorial, like they literally just picked up their bags and left. I found that sort of rude. I mean, as bad of a TA he is, he still deserves some respect because it does look like he's trying to teach... I think. But honestly, I really thought that was a complete waste of an hour.

My physics TA is really cute. LOL. He's an awesome teacher. I love him so much. I think he should be promoted to be a professor or something because he's just that good. LOL. He's mexican and he's got this totally attractive accent, I just love listening to his voice. Anything he teaches, I grasp and understand the concept like right away. LOL. Oh, the power of hot guys...

My chemistry TA is okay... He's got an accent too but it's not as bad as my math TA. I completely BOMBED my chemistry quiz which was out of 2 marks. And the next week, we were suppose to get it back, but he lost mine. HAHA! I'm so happy! So I guess that quiz didn't count for me... hopefully. I knew I got 0/2 though... I mean... I had no idea what the HELL photons were.

I did my biology quiz today, surprisingly, I don't think I did so well. Like I knew everything, but it was so hard managing the time... so I didn't finish. BUT I KNEW EVERYTHING! DAMN DAMN DAMN.

1.) What curse word do you use the most?
Shit. SHIT. I don't know why but SHIT doesn't strike me as a swear word. I say it all the time. LOL.

2.) Do you own an iPod?
No. I think I've gotten over the obsession of wanting one. Psh, no. I'm just bitter.

3.) Who on your Myspace “Top 8″ do you talk to the most?
Ew, Myspace is lame.

4.) What time is your alarm clock set for?
4:30AM

5.) What color is your room?
Some ugly tan colour, but I'd like my bedroom to be white.

6.) Flip flops or sneakers?
Sneakers all the way...

7.) Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
Take the picture, I hate having my picture taken... unless it's with friends and you're doing it with those phones.

8.) What was the last movie you watched?
Oh gosh... I don't remember. The Strangers? Yeah, it's been a while.

9.) Do any of your friends have children?
*no comment*

10.) Has anyone ever called you lazy?
MY MOM! My mom thinks I'm like the world's laziest person, besides my dad. HAHA. But it's strange because I think my dad is one of the most hard-working people I know. My mom thinks everyone is lazy.

11.) Do you take medication to help you fall asleep faster?
Nope.

12.) What CD is currently in your CD player?
CD player? You mean the one that's in my car, right?

13.) Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
CHOCOLATE. White milk alone is gross...

14.) Has anyone told you a secret this week?
Erm... I think so. I don't know if it's a "secret" though, but it seems pretty personal to me.

15.) Have you ever given someone a hickey?
Yepps. With a vacuum cleaner.

16.) Who was the last person to call you?
Erm... it was a guy. Luchen?

17.) Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
Pffft yeah.

18.) Did you watch cartoons as a child?
ARTHUR! MAGIC SCHOOL BUS! PINGU! POWER RANGERS! Wait... Power Rangers weren't cartoons... were they?

19.) How many siblings do you have?
One brat.

20.) Are you shy around the opposite sex?
Umm... not really. Define "shy"?

21.) What movie do you know every line to?
I don't have time like that on my hands.

22.) Do you own any band t-shirts?
Nope. Oh wait, I have a OUR LADY PEACE t-shirt. Well, I gave it to my brother. But I did own it once.

23.) What is your favorite salad dressing?
I don't eat salad... but when I do... I like the white creamy stuff. I don't know what it's called.

24.) Do you read for fun?
I don't have that kind of time on my hands... but I read DBSK stuff for fun.

25.) Do you cry a lot?
Actually... I do. LMAO. I cry really easily. I'm huge a baby.

26.) Have you ever farted in public?
Erm... like... in front of people? Define "public". LMAO.

27.) Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop?
I'm using a desktop computer right now.

28.) Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoo?
I want another piercing, I don't know where...

29.) What is the weather like?
It's dark outside, I can't tell.

30.) Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos?
No! Maybe if he has one or two, but not covered in tatoos! That's insane. I don't want to be a gangster wife.

31.) Is sex before marriage wrong?
It's not wrong... but I have my own opinion towards it.

32.) When was the last time you slept on the floor?
Last week? When I slept at Julie's at York...

33.) How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
If I get 5 hours, I'm lucky.

34.) Are you in love or lust?
Erm... nothing right now.

35.) Are your days full and fast-paced?
YEAH!

36.) Do you pay attention to calories on the back of packages?
Dude, I'm like an eating-machine. I just shove things into my mouth, as long as it's good, I don't give a shit about how much weight I'm going to gain. I only worry about that stuff after I eat it. LOL.

37.) How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
19, baby! I'm going to drink like no tomorrow on my birthday.

38.) Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
Not really as long as I know what they're saying. I hAtE wHeN pEoPlE tYpE lIkE tHiS tHoUgH.

39.) Have you ever been to Six Flags?
No.

40.) Do you get along better with the same or opposite sex?
Err... I have more girlfriends, if that's what you're asking.

41.) Do you like Cottage Cheese?
What cheese? It sounds moldy... and no I don't eat moldy cheese.

42.) Do you sleep on your side, tummy, or back? Back and side. I sleep on my back and I end up on my side.

43.) Have you ever bid for something on eBay?
Nope, I'm not an eBay person.

44.) Do you enjoy giving hugs?
Depends... who I'm giving them to. HAHAHA.

45) What song did you last sing out loud?
Bleeding Love? Stickwitu? One of the other...

46) What is your favorite TV show?
Oh gosh... I have too many to name. Flashpoint? Criminal Minds? CSI?

47) Which celebrity dead or alive would you want to have lunch with?
Doesn't matter, as long as the food is good. LOL.

Okay, so one of my friends hooked me up with another freebie giveaway thing. I don't know if it actually works but I've never won anything worth winning in my life (lmao), so I'm giving this a shot.

Go to: http://www.handbagplanet.com/
Enter in your name and e-mail address.
Pick the handbag you want.
That's it...

I was suppose to finish that damn list on Sunday. SUNDAY! It's almost a week now and I'm still not caught up. Something is wrong with me.
Anyways some DBSK before I leave...

What are you doing? Someone, please, enlighten me. Nonetheless, no one else could possibly look as hot doing this move.

Yes, that's right Max, make sure Micky doesn't touch Yunho... or himself. Look at where Micky's other hand is...

Yes my darling, flaunt them. Nope, I'm not perverted. HAHA.

No, I just changed the banner. You know what I don't like about the coding of this layout? The fact that is changes when you view it in Internet Explorer or Firefox. Why can't it be the same in both? Okay, whatever. I don't care.

Anyways, yes I know, the banner is pretty crappy. I spent like 10 minutes on it. Well, I spent like half an hour making a Yunho one, only to find that it was too hard to do all the blending, so I decided on just taking a DBSK picture, where I don't need to blend at all... but I think the colouring needs a bit of work. Whatever. Too tired to care.